I feel rather let down... it doesnt get better somehow... I got set back, not over and over again, but, in different ways, like in anyway I could be crushed... I lost trust, trust is earned, not gained through other ways... I found out, that nobody should be or could be blamed, except me... I am honoured to have friends, who care, who are willing to be there for me... Thanks :) The reason cause, its me, I just hide things away... That's how I deal with things, I am used to it, I keep it in, hoping to let it slip pass... That's not going to happen... I have many many flaws, I am, probably a terribly flawed human... I am trying... I don't take life for granted, I just wished that I could value life more, by being less crushed...
Its hard to stay strong all the time, I guess everyone knows that... I used to look rather care-free, at least, start of year 1... That nobody would think I'm a person who would actually be crushed and be demoralised... Everything is changing... I hope not, definitely...
And something made me find out a true statement, that nothing will succeed, in a person who is broken inside...