the last sunset

haha, yeahss... 4th day!!! haha, since I hav been writing quite alot, so I tote I would change the font size. today was cp training, it was quite sian... Coz its super dry... talking, talking n more talking... Its so much to tak in... Bt the gd ting is I didnt fall aslp... Some specific reasons (sold separately)... Haha... den, still, aft that I didnt hav anything on and went for lunch with family at JP... Bt it gt me a new ZINC bag! Woots!!! :D haha its kinda small though...

Haiz... I Wasted a chance with her today... at cp training... nxt monday will be the nxt time I get closer to her again I hope... Bt I feel so helpless... I wish I had no feelings at all... It hurts... Alot... I duno why... It jux hurts... She seem lik she noes alot... Bt I doubt so... I wish she knew... A part of me wants to tell her hw I feel, bt a greater part is resisting it... I duno when dis greater part will shrink and become the smaller part... Haiz... What I get is what I deserved... Falling deeper and deeper into ****...

Jux tak my feelings cn youu? Or jux burn and thrash it... I cant hold on for long... Make me let go... Pls, mak me let go...